Thursday, April 26, 2007
given a choice,
would you be kind to the person who's kind to you,
or would you be kind to the person whom you care about.
would you love one who loves you,
or love one that you love.
i chose to be kind to all, and love all.
i am superficial when i make that choice.
i think about myself before i think about any other things.
Thus, it is like, my choice could have not been my choice after all.
how to attain a state where i am my thoughts?
where i act my choice in regard to my thoughts?
neglecting the eyes of the world,
the thoughts of people around me,
the feeling of myself.
we go about saying having a mind of our own,
is it true?
or are we simply having a mind,
that thinks with logic,
practicability, and
superficiality.
the world seems so fake because of that,
actions were taken after a series of "purification" and "filtering",
it is no longer a thought anymore.
it is just action.
and everybody is viewed to have a mask,
to cover up our hideous self.
but actually,
we are the mask,
we allowed our thoughts to be processed,
to be edited.
it is the logic taught to us in school,
the pride our parents want us to have,
the superficiality the society forced into us.
the thoughts that we processed,
will be carried out through actions we do,
and through time,
it has been mistaken that, what we do is what we think.
another us have grown,
grown to fit into the story of what we do is what we think.
we now have two self.
when we can accept that we have two self.
a self that thinks the way we want,
and another self to act like a council.
and to acknowledge that we will behave two self simultaneously,
it is what we practised for however long we lived.
we can no longer differentiate which self is which.
and both are indifferent towards each other.
if given the choice again,
i guess, i would only be kind to those we are kind to me,
and love those who love me.
i am selfish on the inside, and i do not want to deny it anymore.
keruirocks.
11:09 AM
