Tuesday, May 01, 2007
Everytime i hear the "cannot be bothered" voice,
it just disturbs me so much.
one thing is because she used to be so sweet on the phone,
and now she has turned so foul towards me.
the other thing is it irritates me to know that humans can change their face so quickly,
she didnt take into account our a year long relationship, nor the kindness she
once embraced in.
It is not that i cannot accept the fact and reality,
it is hard to accept.
i felt so helpless and hopeless everytime this kinda thing happen,
but now i ask myself, what for?
not as if she will pity me for suffering,
not as if she will come back to me if im still kind to her,
not as if she will appreciate the things i do for her.
It is her life,
she chose to be like that,
she chose to be ignorant to the truth.
and i can only wish her good luck.
for sometime i have been thinking where's the limit to my kindness,
i guess i am already walking along the limit.
It is no one's fault that i am the state i am in.
i brought myself to this,
it is because i chose to be kind to her,
instead of myself.
i was really foolish to believe that she wants to be friends,
i should have just stuck to my decision before,
perhaps i may already be over it now.
Ann told me we are so screwed up.
i think she is right,
i need to stop thinking like a loser,
and get back to my life.
Jean told me something true.
I always think that she is nicest person and all,
and in my life she has been the nicest.
Thats because she was the first.
i may meet a nicer girl soon?
and i guess my sis is quite feddup with me,
everytime emo in front of her.
i guess, i believed wrong again.
but then it was a good journey.
keruirocks.
10:35 AM
