Thursday, June 28, 2007
Dear xxxxxxx,
How are you?
The truth is that, the more i try to change my life, the more it remains the same.
the more i try to forget and let go, the more i realise you are still the one.
There is so much i've wanted to say to you, and so many places i want to bring you to.
Stupid, am i? i am actually still hoping it can happen one day. I dont understand it either, but i guess, this feeling cannot be explained through logic or words. You are probably laughing it out loud while reading this. Like why is this fat asshole still clinging on me. Ha, i am so foolish lah.
Someone hanged up my phone today, which kinda irritates me. How stupid i was to do that to you last time. Fuck. Is there a better word to describe how regretful i am.
How long has it been? nearing 3 months already huh.
Well, i still believe what you said to me, about the big smile 6 months later, maybe everything now is a blessing in disguise. maybe, maybe, i hope.
Meow meow is doing fine, i am taking care of him everyday, i made sure he doesnt sleep too long nowadays. hehe, he is always crying he wants to see you. that silly cat. i told him you have gone for a long holiday to visit a old man, and he actually believes! haha
I have been thinking about what love is, and how can one measure love, and only to realise that it can be simple and of no limits and frame, and it is because i want to love, partly because of my selfish reasons, that made it look complicated and superficial.
Now that i kinda understood it more significantly, i want to say it again to you that, i really love you. and never once i have stop loving you. I miss you so badly, so so badly.
May any great one up there, bless you with good health and wealth and luck. Please take care of yourself.
Yours faithfully,
kerui.
keruirocks.
8:34 PM
