Wednesday, June 06, 2007
Surprisingly, i wasn't really that depressed.
Well maybe because i cried and i had loving frens and families there for me.
i apologise for the nonsense i typed in IRC last night.
i took alook at our pictures. i was so sweet and loving.
usually i will get super emo when i go thru them, but somehow, i no longer feel so.
yes i still miss her and all. ( i mean the her long ago)
but at least my emotions are stable.
She was such a cutie. feel like pinching her cheek everytime i see the pictures. hehe
and her trademark antics, forever so heartwarming and teasing.
i still cannot bring myself to blame her or hate her or anything bad.
i know she's a nice person, probably nice the wrong way.
and probably, our maturity and mentality are just at different levels, which is why both of us could not understand each others' effort.
But i've decided that since she has taken such a dark route,
my kindness ends here.
i will let go of everything. good and bad.
i will just take it as nothing happened, and i do not know such a girl.
its tough, but i have to do it. i do not want Jean to scold me anymore.
i forgive you.
and i guess it's time to forgive myself.
i think i have no regrets, which is why i wasnt that sad after all.
i've done my part.
It takes 8 seconds to have a first impression, a great deal of time to create an everlasting impression, but it will only take 1 second to turn everyting to dust.
Forgive and ( try to ) forget.
keruirocks.
8:49 PM
