This is a hard feeling.

I've been waiting and waiting,

but not even a sms since a month ago.

what is this feeling?

betrayed? cheated? neglected?

It is so hard to resist to let myself down.

The temptation of falling into self pity,

and to love myself more.

Unrequited.

is it?

Can i consider her heartless? ungrateful?

Is a relationship so simple as to i love you you love me?

Why did i think it so complicatedly?

People have been telling me that, this break up wasn't bad after all.

and i myself knew that.

i mean since then, things have changed so much better, like for me and my sis,

and maturity in the field of EQ.

but down to the bottomline, what was the thing that changed my life and made me ever so happy?

She's going overseas, with her boyfriend and teammates.

probably gonna be such a romantic trip or something.

im jealous. im selfish.

i hate myself for why am i not the one going instead.

Unrequited? not magnanimous enough.

Life is full of ups and downs,

i know that.

when will i stop dropping?